i am so tired today. i told my mom that i am too tired to be alive. and that's basically the truth. but i have to be alive so, i'll push forward.

i was looking through this really weird old cookbook thing my mom has. it has recipes and other stuff from the 1800's through like the late 70's. it's so fucking weird. it has this section in the back that's called 'remember when' and it has all this random shit from back in the day. there's a part about brushing your teeth..and it says to use finely sulverized charcoal, or white wood ash..and 'a splintered stick end makes a good brush'..anyways, i thought it was funny. also has a thing about preserving eggs which can keep the eggs fresh FOR YEARS. seriously, who wants to keep eggs around for that long?

i kind of want to cook dinner and stay home with the boys for valentines. but i'm also looking forward to going out. but it seems that whenever i am out without chris and matthew i just miss them too much. regardless of how annoyed i am with them. somehow i always seem to find a way to NOT enjoy going out. not sure why.

anyway. mallory and i are going to make crushed hard candy cookies. hopefully they're good!

thanks for taking the time to read my crap.